Remembering Tuesday 6th April 2010 at 5:02am

The date and time- Tuesday 6th April 2010 at 5:02am will forever be engraved on my mind for 2 main reasons- the first I am not quite ready to share yet (only those closest to me know) and the second reason is that I realised that I had started something with Mister Bad Boy that I was not quite willing to see until the end.

The realisation came about at an early hour as I lay next to a snoring Mister Bad boy. It was then I knew that the end was nigh.

I had come to his house that evening with the promise of a home cooked meal and great conversation, but little did I know that it would be the last time that I would ever want to see Mister Bad Boy again.

The dinner was lovely, the conversation flowed until we both fell asleep on his sofa. A few hours later my sleep was suddenly broken by an outside noise and I woke up. I looked over at him asleep beside me and realised then and there that it will never work. It dawned on me that I had done something that I swore I would never do, which is see someone who is wrong for you just so you can say "I've got someone".

He was not my type or someone I could see myself marrying and bearing his children. Somehow the x factor was missing, I am sure you know what I mean. I want a man whose kisses leave me wanting more, a man who adores me and all that I am, a man who makes the whole world disappear when I am in his presence and to be honest a man with pecs and abs to die for- I am after all a red hot blooded woman.

The question is where do I find such a man? Because I now know that he is certainly not the man who was lying beside me blissfully unaware that our 'thing'- if you could call it that- is over.

LSGS